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I saw a few yellow leaves on the trees in the park today. It made me smile. Fall is on its way and after a whole lifetime of summer being my favorite season, I have switched my allegiance. I now love Fall above all. The heat which I used to let wash over me all summer long is now cloying and suffocating and the beach has become more of an annoyance than a something I enjoy. Not long ago, I used to sit on the beach for hours just letting the heat bake into my skin. Now, just the thought of that makes me cringe. I'll be lucky if I don't get skin cancer for all those years I prayed to that yellow ball of disease. I'm not sure why this has changed. Maybe its because the last few summers of my life have been nothing short of underwhelming and at times god awful. I was unemployed for 2 of them which meant no money to do things, another summer I was too far away from the beach to go easily and I was pretty lonely a lot of the time. With my husband working a lot, I was alone much o...

Its safe to say I am obsessed with my new project. This is typical of me: I get all gung ho about new projects and it consumes me for a week or two and then the interest dwindles. Call it my undiagnosed ADD. I really hope it doesn't happen this time. I'm relying on my sister Anne to keep me in check. We are working on this together so hopefully being accountable to someone will make me stick with it. I've done this my whole life: start something new, love it at first and then the excitement dwindles. Its the same thing with my current job. I was ecstatic the first few months: I was working in a new field, I wasn't unemployed anymore, I was meeting new people and I was good at the job. Now after almost a year, its gotten stale. I see the same people everyday, I give the same lectures about weight loss (no you cannot expect 20 pounds to come off in a week) and I'm making very little money. If I haven't stated this already: I get bored easily. That is why I'm h...