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Happy Birthday to me!

I turn 41 today. It has been a year full of reflection, growth and change. Last year at this time, so much was in flux. I was living in New Jersey, working full time as a fitness manager, going through my husbands unemployment trial, researching new places to live and having no idea where life was moving me. Since that time, life has stabilized. There is still so much in flux but there is equally as much that is secure. I am no longer wondering about where we will live in 3 months, I am not searching for a new job, I am not worrying and stressing about every inane detail of my life and most importantly, I am content. I know that life will always have its challenges and unexpected turns but I am learning (and it is a process) of accepting life as is and not wishing I was somewhere else. It doesn't mean I don't want certain things like my own  place to live and more financial security but I am happy with what life brings moment to moment. I am not always planning ahead anymore an...

Taking steps

In a few of my previous posts, I wrote about how I am struggling to find my place - the little holes in life where my soul fits snugly in. I am happy to say that I have made some progress.  The first thing I have done is to become a volunteer at the ASPCA animal shelter. I have such a deep love of animals that has only grown stronger as I have gotten older. I realized that I may not be a mother to my own children, but I have a mothering instinct for animals, especially baby animals. I have an 8 month old kitten that was starving and flea infested when we found her underneath my mother in laws car back in November. Now she is the most loving, adorable healthy kitten and I like to think I had a big part in her being this way. I took great care to make sure she felt loved and safe and it has made me realize that I have a gift for caring for animals. I want to use and strengthen that gift. I know I can't take in any more of my own animals (the inn is officially closed at 4) but I can c...