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My boring life

I've made a decision about my life: I'm going to stop being the crabby pants I was all winter and try to enjoy life a little more. I've been in a perpetual state of stress for about 2 years. If this is what being a real adult feels like, than I want to go back to being a kid, pimples, awkward chubbiness and all. . It seems that over the last couple of years, life has sucked some of my child like joy from me. I used to have so much fun all the time and lately I've been living in the past; dwelling on all the fun I USED to have. I have become what I said I would never in a million trillion years become: boring. It might has well be a four letter word but seriously, I am b-o-r-i-n-g. I came to a realization last week and that is that I've been so damn focused on my career change, finding a decent job and providing my my family that I've lost sight of anything and everything else life has to offer. Even when I was in my most stressful job, I still managed to go out with friends and relax with family and let loose. I laughed a lot despite the hard times and now I do nothing but worry. It's slowly killing me but I'm making a vow to change that here and now. I'm not really sure how but I'll get there. I think it starts with doing non work related activities. The funny thing is that what I used to do for stress management was work out and now that I counsel people on working out for my job, that has become like work to me too. My leisure activities and work have gotten all tangled up in one gigantic balled mess. How do I fix this? I haven't the slightest idea. What do people do for fun that isn't ridiculously calorie laden and fueled by alcohol? If you have any thoughts on the subject, I would love to hear them.

In the meantime, I have my good old standby: books. I'm now on the third book of "The Song of Fire and Ice" series and I can't really write anything about it because one of my most faithful readers (Hi Mom!) is also in the midst of this book and I don't want to give anything away. I will say that I am enjoying this book the most out of the ones I have read so far. I feel totally immersed in the world George Martin has created and its nice to be swept away every night. I'm even sleeping better although I can't really attribute it to the books as much as I can to the melatonin supplement I've been taking every night. (for all you troubled sleepers out there, I swear by this stuff - its like taking a big swig of nyquil without the yucky after taste). I also saw "The Hunger Games" last night and while the book of course was better, the film was a very good adaptation. It stayed very true to the over all feel of the book and even though I knew what was about to happen, I was still on the edge of my seat the whole time. Hey look, entertainment that didn't involve calories or exercise! Too bad movies have gotten obscenely expensive and while I managed to avoid the enticing smell of butter clad popcorn, I cannot show that kind of restraint all the time.

I need things to look forward to like summer nights on the porch with a sangria in hand, mini golf battles with my husband, beach days with the family, ice cream on the AC boardwalk and cheesy summer romance novels. I can have all of these things because summer, my favorite, favorite season is indeed on its way and boredom is actually embraced and accepted in the summer so bring it on!

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