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My wish list

Lately, I've been doing a lot of reflecting on my life and what I really want. My job has not been going so well and it has gotten me a bit frustrated. I thought that by this point in my life I would be at least a little settled but yet I'm still struggling to find myself and what will truly make me feel happy and content. I didn't think at this age I would still be broke, still not know what I want to be when I grow up and still not be physically or emotionally stable. I've tried so many different jobs and yet that perfect one still eludes me. I know that I am not alone in this because most of the world feels this way but I am won't stop until I find the thing that truly lights my fire. There are so many things I love but is it possible to do all of it? I think it is and so I am putting out into the universe what my perfect life would look like:

My husband and I would live in a condo or apartment that is walking distance from the ocean. (no houses because houses need constant maintenance and that just does not fall into my perfect life scenario) It would have a deck where we could sit at night drink wine and listen to the waves crashing. It would have a state of the art kitchen, a room with a big cozy fireplace, plenty of windows so the cats could sun themselves and my own bathroom. I would feel like home and it will be decorated exactly as I want with comfortable couches and cozy wall colors and fresh flowers in vases. For work I would have my own cafe that would be open only for breakfast and lunch where I would make seasonal home baked breads, soups and sandwiches complete with a garden full of fresh produce and herbs. I would take walks every day, do yoga, write and read books. I would also teach healthy cooking classes out of my state of the art kitchen and train only the people I want to train like kids, seniors and people who need it but can't afford it.  We would take vacations whenever we wanted: to Vegas for my husband, Paris for me and anywhere in between that strikes our fancy. I would never worry about money but we would never live extravagantly.  I would take bike rides and go to farmers markets and be able to see my family without worrying about how expensive it was to travel to Boston. I would see plays in the city and go shoe shopping whenever I felt like it. My husband and I would be able to spend time together without being totally exhausted all the time because he will be doing a job he loves but that gives him freedom and flexibility. What I'm really seeking is security and a sense of peace and fresh air every day. I don't need a lot of money or fame of a big house or car. I'm just asking to be happy and feel content with what I have. This is not to much to ask. I'm not asking for the impossible just a nice simple quiet life that would let me be me. Ok universe...ya listening?

By the way, I finished "Light in August." I hated it. Don't read it.

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