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Unemployment is like a game. How many jobs did I apply to this week and get rejected from? answer: 3. How many job interviews have I gone on recently?answer: zero. How many hours a week have I spent filling out applications and emailing resumes? answer: 20. In some universe all of those hours should add up to a prize? My prize? More frustration and  more hours of time to fill. There isn't even any good tv to watch right now. August is like a vast wasteland in the entertainment world. All of the summer shows have wrapped up and the fall shows haven't started yet. Thats why I've started to invent challenges for myself to keep from sitting on the floor of my apartment staring at the walls all day because believe me, some days thats as exciting as it gets.  Last week my challenge was starting this blog, this week its to run in the park every morning and do yoga every night, next its going to be to cook only vegetarian meals, the week after that its  going to be to start acting like Larry David on "Curb your Enthusiasm." I admire Larry David, I really do. He says things that everyone thinks and no one has the guts to say.  Like today for example. I was running in the park and this little kid runs right at me waving a huge branch in my face and of course the mother just watched without saying a word. I really wanted to open my mouth but I didn't.  No more. I'm just going to start saying whatever I want to whoever I want. I used to be like this in my 20s and then I grew up and realized that you piss a lot of people off this way. As a professional, adult woman, you can't really do that all the time. Now, what the hell do I care? I've already had all of my pride stripped away and my wallet emptied. .I have literally nothing left to lose. The only problem is that when you are rich like Larry David people call you quirky and weird and write you off. When you poor like me, you are just bitter and crazy. Well, lately I'm definitely bitter and yes a little crazy too.  What does all of this have to do with the subject of this blog you ask? Absolutely nothing. See, I am definitely going crazy.
And no, I have not started "Lolita" yet. A marathon of "Family Guy" is calling my name.

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