Skip to main content
Every winter my husband and I hibernate. We pick a show that has several seasons on demand that we can watch to keep us entertained until the first blossoms bud and the breeze has a warmth in it that whispers of spring. This year we chose "Lost." We watched all 6 seasons in a month. Yup that's how bored we were. Stick a couple of snow days in the mix and we were really bored. If you have never seen the show watch it. Please. Its one you won't forget and one that will keep you thinking for a long time. At first I thought it was about people getting shipwrecked on an island. I don't know about you but anything involving plane crashes scares the crap out of me and so I was reluctant to watch but aside from the first few episodes the crash is irrelevant. At its core the show is about the meaning of life. Deep I know. Its about the time honored struggles of good vs. evil; darkness vs. light; science vs. religion; choice vs. fate. I was most interested in the idea of the choices we make versus our life already being mapped out for us and fate handing us a deck of cards already shuffled. In the show the survivors of the crash time travel and try to reverse the events that brought them to the island. It explores the idea of alternate universes: us choosing a different path and getting to see where it leads. The phrase that is most often repeated in the show is, "what happened happened." meaning that regardless of us wanting or trying to stop things from happening, fate will step in and ensure it does indeed happen. So no free choice but fate dictating our lives? Its an interesting concept. If this is true, say I chose a completely different life path - instead of having no clue what I would do with my life and moving to LA and working 80 different jobs say I chose to go straight to grad school and become an English Professor (something I have often thought would be my career in my alternate universe). I wouldn't be struggling with money and I wouldn't be struggling with knowing what I wanted but I wouldn't have met my friends or my husband. If fate intervened though, would I somehow lose that job and find my way into the world of fitness? Would I meet my husband some other way and still be married? The show says yes. The person you are meant to be with you will be with no matter what. So do the choices we make along the way matter? There is a comfort in the theory of fate ruling our lives because it takes the second guessing out of everything. Life is full of choices every day from the mundane (what will I eat for breakfast?) to the profound (which job will I take that will give me financial security and peace of mind?). If fate is steering the wheel of our lives we will end up where we are supposed to end up regardless of how many choices we made to get us there. The show also talks about choice. Often the characters who are asked to do something difficult ask, "Do I have a choice" and the answer is "You always have a choice." Really? Do we? I don't know what the answers to the universe are; nobody does but choice is something that has been on my mind lately because I feel like I have made some poor choices in the last few years. I used to be guided by an internal compass that told me what to do. I still have it but lately its had to speak louder for me to hear it. With everything I have been through I have lost my ability to listen to what the universe wants from me and for me. My sister Maggie reminded me last week that I do have the ability to listen to my intuition and that it has always guided me. We spent two years in a row vacationing together in Sedona, Arizona: the most spiritual, calm place I have ever been. It has a natural beauty and peace there that I have never experienced anywhere else. While we were there, we shrugged off our petty every day worries and let the beauty and the serenity permeate everything we did for a few days and it was amazing. She reminded me last week that I need to channel that energy again. No decision I can make is wrong if I truly listen to myself. And who knows maybe fate does rule our lives and I can sit back for a while and let her take the wheel.

Comments

  1. The show taught me that if someone tells you to push a button every 108 minutes. DO IT!

    ReplyDelete

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

What is a classic?

There are varying definitons and opinions about what defines a classic but they all have  3 things in common: 1.  It stands the test of time 2. It has universal appeal 3. It has artistic quality I have to add my own to these three and that is that it moves you to feel something - whether it be love, hate, anger, sadness or joy, a classic work of literture should have the power to move. This has led me to reflect upon my first real experience with being moved by a book. I read a lot as a child and teenager but largely to impress my mother who was a librarian. My reading experience didn't extend beyond  Stephen King and the Baby Sitter's Club books. Then my junior year in high school, my English teacher assigned, "A Separate Peace." by John Knowles,  a typical high school reading list book.  I approached it like I did every school assigment - with diligence but little to no enthusiasm. Three quarters of the book was pretty forgettable....

We are our own harshest critic

The buzzword of the moment seems to be mindfulness. Everywhere I turn, there is mention of this - in the podcasts I listen to, in the articles I read, in my guided meditations and during yoga. It means essentially staying present in every moment and not projecting your mind into thoughts of the past or future. This is extremely challenging. I am struggling with this lately. My mind has been obsessing over what steps I want to take in my life next but also what mistakes I have made in my past that have gotten me to the present moment. I haven't been meditating as much lately and that is one of the reasons why my mind seems to be wandering so much. It is not being trained properly. I have also only done yoga 2x this week which is highly unusual for me. I have been mentally and emotionally exhausted and so because of this I have neglected many of the things that typically keep me sane. I am trying not to beat myself up over my lack of motivation but it is where my mind goes when I am ...

Lolita Review: Part 1

So I have finally starting reading "Lolita" and I'm hooked. My husband came into our bedroom at 1:45 am and saw me fighting sleep while trying to read. That's what happens when a book is that good. You forget where you are or what is happening around you. All sense of time fades away. Within the first paragraph I already knew why this book is considered a classic: the writing is beautiful. A lot of times in between reading really well written, thought provoking books, I will take a break with something easy - ya know the type- they are usually referred to as beach reads, the books where you don't have to concentrate at all to get through it. I like these books but I never feel as if the authors are real writers. To me they are purely employees collecting a paycheck for doing a job. The words don't sing off of the page; there is no soul alive behind the paragraphs. Reading a classic is a whole different experience. You can feel the writers emotions right there...